Domino effect

So lately i have been feeling a bit off. More like i feel everyone around me is working against me rather then with me. Like how one persons problem can not only effect the people around them but also set off a domino effect esentually effecting muliple people. Like how one persons problem/dilemma can thus create your own. Not only do you feel it nessary to be there for them but now you have problems of your own that have arisen because of theirs. What are you to do?

Try as it may to handle your own problem/dilemma you can not seem to be able to forget what else is going on around you either. Its overwelming the differences but also how ther are multiple simalritys as well. How at first you can be so curtain but how quickly it is bright and shinning.

The mind begins to wonder about how to fix/change things and where it is all coming from. The hostility/hope, prayers/dreams, hurt/love all in dismay.

You know the answer to both their problem and your own but yet you also know neither will never happen!

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mind is racing...

So in the upheaval yesturday i have calmed down a bit and come to my sense's that maybe if the person i was screaming at keeps pushing everyone that loves them away then maybe just maybe they really dont see what they are doing as wrong.

not everyone has common sense and most people tend to me ignorant to the thought of someone else being right. Today i have found myself trying to learn to not let it bother me. that maybe i just need to learn to look away and not let it bother me so much. I am not the one being directly effected nor should i let it be my problem.

But on the other hand how do you turn your shoulder when you are libra like myself. I am ment to be the shoulder you lean on, the one you can always turn to and talk to, the one that never lets go. I'm born to try and help others and especially family.

I can't shake this feeling. I had a thought a few years ago about you and knew there would be a situation the would arise but i really don't want to be right about this one. I want to be proven wrong.

How dare you?

Oh and this would be me right now. Some people just really need to learn to grow the @#$% up and take responsibility for their actions.

Needless to say my feet and tongue are bleeding... tired of walking on these egg shells and biting my lip. But then when i do stop it doesn't seem to make any bit of difference. you don't seem to care about anyone around you. What you do doesn't just effect you anymore... it effect lots of people. Your actions speak louder then words at the moment and you are only digging your self a hole that is going to put you some where that you really aren't going to like.

What is it going to take? do you need to wake up in a cold empty house for you to see what you are doing? I'm not sure what if anything will get through to you at the moment.

I want to help you. I want to be there for you. But all you do is push us all away.

Nothing is going to get solved that way. This will not just disappear. Unfortunately you are stuck with us for better or worse now, For the rest of your life.

Things can get better. Things can change. Just things need to change first.

Resolution...what...

So a few people have asked what my new years resolution is...

My resolution is to not have one. Every year i make one and a few weeks into the new year i break it so whats the point i say.

There are plenty of things i can think of that i could make but i am going to refrain from that. Do you plan on making on and what helps you keep in in check for most of the year?

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Back to reality

Well christmas has come and gone and now its time to get bac to reality. The husband goes back to work and i get to my routine of house cleaning...oh the joy.

Also would like to report i think that not only does mother nature read my blog but also father winter does too. He is not to happy with either one of us right now. He dumped atleast a foot of snow on us but him and jack frost are having a bitter cold fit. The winds are howling and the tempature hasnt been above freezing for about 24 hours. Hopping that soon enough mother nature will settle the battle for us.

Not only are the windows howling but my stomach as well. I find that christmas i eat so much junk and a few days later i regret it. Tomorrow i brave the battle of nature and the retail world to buy real food and exchange gifts... wish me luck cause i am going to need it

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it's a awfully big wardrobe...

(from the movie the chronicles of Narnia: the lion the witch and the wardrobe)

Nothing like a good game of hide and seek, with my two favorite kids and we are going on a video adventure. Opening our imaginations! traveling to Narnia with Lucy, Peter, Edmunds and Susan. We have a fresh covering of snow (guess mother nature really does read my blog).

for the few of you who have never read the book or seen the movie here is the storyline...

Based on the classic novel by 'CS Lewis' . Four London children are sent to a professor's country home in order for protection during World War II.  When the Pevensie family are unaware of the adventure they will encounter. During a game of hide and seek, the youngest daughter, Lucy discovers a wardrobe which transports her to the land of Narnia. Covered in snow, Narnia is full of weird and wonderful creatures, but is watched over by the evil White Witch, Jadis. When all four Pevensie children end up through the wardrobe, they discover that it was meant to be, as two daughters of Eve and two sons of Adam must join with the mighty lion, Aslan to defeat the evil White Witch.

its a wonderful story to help keep kids minds avctive and their imaginations running wild. When times are tough you still have your imaginations and family to keep your mind off of the bad things going on around you!

is begining to think mother nature and jack frost are having a affair.

(classic animated jack frost movie)

So here in my small town looks like the only white christmas we will be having is the frost that jack frost has been putting on the window, doors and all over the ground.

So naturally i have been thinking that mother nature and jack frost are having a affair.  Since she is the woman in control father winter doesn't dare make a move with out her say so, cause unlike most men he has already learnt that mother nature is in charge.

So if for some chance mother nature reads my blog this message is for her:

I know that jack frost is very handsome and easy to fall in love with. He's very talented and artistic with his designs BUT... He will never be as talented or as powerful as father winter. Plus by fooling around with jack frost you are only making more work for yourself later on down the road cause eventually father winter will find out and get pissed off and send winter to the lands anyways. Men like drama to ya know. So i just ask that you think about what you are doing long and hard and PLEASE let father winter let it snow on us, PLEASE!

Much ♥ Monday: Lottery

Well more like i'm in love with Lottery's. Here in the states lottery's are everywhere. There are casinos, instant scratch tickets and what they call online tickets. Well my husband and i have had luck before on a instant scratch game and won a decent amount of cash. Right at a good point in our life to help us out. My husband has always as i say wasted money every week and purchase the online games only to win a max of say $10. Yes it nice but that doesn't pay bills or help us out in this time of need.

I am happy to say hunny yes  i do love you bunches and i am glad to say i love the lottery. Right when we had just realized that we miss some very important people in our Christmas shopping our prayers were answered by the NH lottery. As he checked his tickets on line last night he found our way to purchase the last of our Christmas gifts. He had won $150. it's not a lot but it pays the bills!

Thank goodness for Cindy Lou Who

(Dr. Seuss How the Grinch stole Christmas)

Tis the season right...

For some reason this year i'm more of a Grinch then ever. Thankfully we dont have kids but it's still hard.  I love Christmas and it's TRUE meaning but i am just finding it hard to get in the season on giving.

Luckily last night i had the perfect cure. Watching my niece and nephew's face as they watched their videos that Santa email to their mommy. (head over to select all + delete to see what I'm talking about) They were so in aw over the fact that santa knew just how to get to their house, what they were each getting and things that happened to them through out the past year. Santa also had pictures of them both!

"they say that the Grinch's small heart grew three sizes that day. And then - the true meaning of Christmas came through, and the Grinch found the strength of *ten* Grinches, plus two! Welcome, Christmas, bring your cheer. Cheer to all Whos far and near. Christmas Day is in our grasp so long as we have hands to clasp. Christmas Day will always be just as long as we have we. Welcome Christmas while we stand, heart to heart and hand in hand.

confession..

So i have to make a confession....

Not only did i start this blog for the social aspect but all so cause some of the blogs I've been following from near and afar are doing some awesome giveaways and i wanted to take part. 

So here are a few blogs that i have followed and why...

Starting with the main inspiration to why i wanted to blog in the first place. My dear friend Rachel over at Select all + delete. We do talk frequently but it's a wonderful free way for us to keep in touch. Not to mention great way for her to vent about anything and everything. Then in her creativeness she has decided to embark on a great adventure of running a online business. Tatterbeans Photography all i have to say is simply amazing. She has a Esty shop where you can view and purchase her great work or maybe have her do a custom order for you. All the photos are her originals. She is great at capturing special moments and finding the right light to take all these. She has a eye for capturing these great images. .

Here's what she says about her inspiration for starting this...

Tatter Beans was born out of a love of taking photos and my new found love for Photoshop, and the ability to teach myself something new and exciting, and let me tell you I do get excited over such thing.  I have always loved textures and color, so this venture is right down my alley so to speak.

At the moment she is also doing a great giveaway right now,The give away is a 8x10 print (you choice). How is this going to work I hear you ask.... hop on over to her site for the instructions.

The second well i guess it would be the third blog is...

Maxabella Loves... This i have followed from afar. As a new blogger i could never really Follow her blog but i would pop in and read her blog everyday.  There was a time when Rachel at select all +delete had taken a hiatus from blogging and i saw how Maxabella was very concerned about her wearabouts and that she wanted to make sure everything was OK. She even posted a blogger APB out on her. This instantly made me want to have that with someone. A connection made only by reading a personal post about there happens for that day could draw someone in to feel genuinely concerned. Just goes to prove that words have power and meaning. Maxabella in my book is a wonderful woman.  

I was very excited to see the other day that she also is going a Amazing give away at the moment wanted to become a blogger and really follow her. So i did just that. Here is her Lusciously lush fabulously fab gorgeous giveaway .

Isn't that just amazingly wonderful. You all should head there and enter in.

Both giveaways are great. Both women are amazing and a wonderful inspiration to a first time blogger.

bitter cold

So i woke up today to the wonderful bitterness of the winter chill. Yes you read right wonderful, you see winter is my favorite season. It would be so much better if  there was snow on the ground but I'm beginning to think that mother nature has something against New Hampshire this year.

But on a much happier note i embraces the bitterness and headed out on my journey for the day. Spending the night at my best mates house. Always puts a smile on my face. Nothing like sipping tea and chatting about the vast amount of things that have happened since our last visit. Something about just being in great company that can make you forget all the negative things you have going on or happening.

Hope everyone else has just as great of a day!

starting a new trend

So here i am finally in the blogger world. I have been following a friends blog which then lead to reading her followers blogs. I was envious of the friendships that can be made through blogging. Not only friendships but the way i have seen it as a stress release. There has been plenty of days where i have picked up the phone called a friend and rambled in there ear for hours on end and taking up there time so i think this will be a way for me free them of a my rambles.